well i logged into this stuff of blogging some 2 yrs back .. n then neve looked back at it. But, today suddenly, i dunno why i logged in back ... n m juss pouring my frustration on this page ... as i duno want it to b on other ppl !! now u might b pondering why i that i didnt luked at this thing from last 2 yrs ... reason-pursuing the topmost lvl of achievements !! .. thats it .. ! SURPRISED TO KNOW THIS ?? hah .. hold on buddy u r gonna face many such lunatic answers ... !! the thing is that .. somebody told me that ur english skills vil improve if u'll make an acc n then it'll b really really v helpful in future endeavours like CAT / GRE / MAT ... at that tym i went on a high .. i made this acc .. but the inner essence was absent at that tym .. i myself dun realised that yes i need to do this as i wasn't into all this cat / gre blah blah blah stuff ...!! BUT YES today i feel ... i juss wasted my 3 yrs of college lyf ... i learnt nthing out of it ... m not among the top rankers of the class neither on bottom side of list .... m juss goin to end up my college lyf as a ordinary man that i neve wanted to be .. dad told me thousands of time ... "son , either b at the top position or b at the bottom most position, coz in both situations u hv sth ... sth in ur hand .. never end up doin things upto middle lvl .. this is the worst lvl of human lyf ... coz u can't b able to do better things that ppl on top of list du ... and the things that bad ppl du either. U WONT B ABLE TO SURVIVE this middle man's lyf ..!! "
hah .. but finally m at the middle !! bullshit ..
SO TODAY JUSS CAME BACK FROM senate hall, n started pondering ... wat i m ?? after spending these 3 yrs of mine in the most wanted , most esteemed Indian Institue of Technology ??
neither a king, nor a ruler ... !!
neither famous, nor too notorious ... !!
neither a buff, nor a goon ... !!
ummm .. so wot i'm ?? m i an ordinary human being lost in the crowd, that i neve wanted to b ??duh ... !!...letz figure it out...
a) different from the rest of the billions of ppl {yes i think so as i hv my names witten on many rewards, that only can b done by a different person } , someone different someone unique ... !! NAY ...
b) then uummm a wizard, that can chng the direction of wind ne tym he want it to b ?? or a clairvoyant , that can predict watz gonna happen to me in near future ... !!NAY ...
c) m i a victory, that neve eve seen a defeat ? or a loser, whos lexicon doesn't hv the word "victory" ...!! NAY .....
then hu the hell i m ?? i myself dunno... ppl say everybody has sth extraordinary in em .... whrs that alluring thing of mine .. ?? o my vasco da gama whr r u ..? pls come n help me to find it out ...
sometimes i feel lik i hv lost the directions in this world .... i duno whr m goin .. wat m doin ... wat i want to achieve ..?? the only thing i want is to b best in ne field i step into but unfortunately ends up wid nthing lying around me .... m juss the same neophyte wch passed out from school ..3yrs back ... i duno whr m goin ... whr this path will led me to ... !! i always want to achieve best but ends up wid the worst part of it .. !!
may b its all, bcoz of, mere frustration of mine that suddenly erupted out today !! .... whrs all that chrm lost that i was carring till yesterday nite ?? GONE .... whr again i dunno .....
why m dunig all this ... i dunno no ....
wat i'll get out it ... i dunno no ...
wat i want to achieve ...i dunno no ... !!
today i feel like m a pea brained person hu ruined his 3yrs of college lyf ... n 1 more yr is goin to be .. !!
